Life can hit you hard. Usually when it does, it’s all at once. That seems to be what is happening right now. I’m not really sure why I am writing right now. I feel like I just need to get some things out. It’s been a rough couple of weeks. My sweet little doggy tore her ACL and meniscus. We are already over $1,000 into this and her surgery isn’t until June 3rd. At that point, I have to pay $4,000. I love her more than anything, so I would pay a million dollars if I had to, but it sucks.

I couldn’t let her get all the spot light and spend all the money though. I definitely had to one-up her. Sunday while I was playing ball, I got hit. I couldn’t stop throwing up that night and the day after. My boyfriend hounded me until I went to the doctor. After sitting in the ER for 7 hours, they finally seen me. I had them run a number of tests for different reasons. Turns out, I have a broken wrist (which I have been playing with for a month), I have to see a GI doctor, and to top it all off, I have a cyst, larger than a lime, on my left ovary. It does explain a lot of the pain and difficulties I have been dealing with, but I can only imagine what all the tests are going to cost. I have to keep going back for follow up ultrasounds because it could rupture at any time, causing need for immediate surgery. It’s honestly kind of scary.

I have been really stressing out over all of this. I hate for my baby to be hurt. She’s pitiful. I have had to give her so much medicine and we have had so many ups and downs with them. I am stressing over what’s going on with me and all the medicine they are having me take. I am stressing the cost of everything. Now that I have so much paid off, I am looking to buy a house in the next 5 months. I was working on having a solid down payment. One step forward, two steps back. It’s how it always feels.

I can’t complain about everything. There is so much more I feel like I need to say. Or want to say. Who even reads this anyway? If anyone. Who knows.

Hopefully things will be looking up! Let’s cross our fingers. This weekend should be great, I get to dress up and be a bridesmaid in a wedding! Cheers to Haley and John!! I love you both ❤