It’s been such a long time since I have written. I have just been so busy. Work has been crazy, buying a house, moving, playing ball, it’s all just been a lot. I feel like I haven’t had a lot of time to myself. Sometimes I feel like I’m just going through all the motions of life; check this box, complete this task, mark this off. I haven’t really dove into anything real in awhile. I haven’t really expressed a lot. I just thought of that song, Numb Little Bug by Em Beihold.

“Do you ever get a little bit tired of life
Like you’re not really happy but you don’t wanna die
Like you’re hanging by a thread but you gotta survive
‘Cause you gotta survive
Like your body’s in the room but you’re not really there
Like you have empathy inside but you don’t really care
Like you’re fresh outta love but it’s been in the air
Am I past repair?”

Does everyone that suffers from ADHD, anxiety, and depression relate to that song, or is it just me?! I just feel like I’m just floating lately. I’m just a balloon, floating through the air, that will inevitably pop. Sometimes I think that I want/need to feel things so intensely, but then I end up feeling nothing at all. I don’t know how to explain it. All I know is that I need to get back to writing. So, stay tuned . . .