I feel like I have a lot I could write about right now. So many ups and so many downs. So many things that I question. So many things that occupy this scattered brain of mine.

I really need to advocate for my dog’s surgery (GoFundMe) It’s really weighing on me. Could I use a credit card? Yes. Could I use the money for my down payment of my new house? Yes. But honestly, it’s going to put all my plans back. I have to keep my credit spotless. I’ve worked so hard to get it back.

I just want me healthy, my dog healthy, and a new house that is ours. I really miss my house from back home. Here though, I’m thinking a 3 bedroom and a 2-3 bath. A backyard for Z to lay in the sun, while I do my work. I just want it to feel like “home”. I want to have friends over and play games. I want to be able to do a fire and enjoy outside. Shoot, throw me a hot tub out there and I’ll be happy.

I guess I’m just ambien rambling at the moment. Not sure why I am even writing. Just – felt I needed to. Let’s hope for better days and if you feel it in your heart to donate, please do. This dog legitimately came into my life and saved me from the worst depression I have ever been through. And for that, she deserves the best. I can never repay her for fixing so many broken pieces.