Do you ever feel like things are going . . . too well? Like you’re just waiting on the other shoe to drop? That’s how I have been feeling lately. I have made peace with a lot of things that were embedded in me. I have realized that certain things and situations are out of my control.

Work has been going well. I am building one of the, if not the strongest team, in the whole state. I have the best group of people that work for me. They amaze me every single day. I couldn’t be more proud of them!

Softball is going pretty great. I’ve been playing Monday, Wednesday, Friday, and Sunday. It’s definitely my favorite thing to do and I’m able to enjoy it all the time now. I’ve literally gained so many friends and “family” playing.

Friends are even better! I have met some amazing people here. I have branched out and now I have a girl’s dinner almost every week and I’m even in a wedding! I’m so excited about it. May is just around the corner and it’s going to be a great time!

So many good things are happening. So many things feel like they are falling into place. I feel . . . happy. Genuinely. I’m finding a normal. It’s scary though. The last time I had a “normal” and felt genuinely happy, I got broken. What if I have let my guard down so much, that I will fall back into the same boat? It’s something that is always in the back of my mind. I have to do it though. I have to just let myself fall . . . fall into this life and happiness and pray that it works out.