Girl,

You just woke up from a dream that brought back so many memories and flooded them right into your peaceful mind. It’s back isn’t it? That tightness in your chest, the feeling of your teeth clinching together? The feeling that your mind may never stop racing to every end of your brain that you are hiding from? It’s a bad day again isn’t? It’s going to be “one of those days”. We know that those days consist of a continuous list of everything that you have done wrong, recently, and in your past. We know that no matter what we try to do (take more medication, drown it with alcohol, run away) nothing helps. It’s okay to have a bad day. It’s okay that the depression and the anxiety is too much to battle for the day. It’s okay. You’re tired of fighting it. So, have a day. Let yourself have a bad day, but just one. Do not wallow in it. Accept it, do what you can, but don’t pretend. Have a bad day and figure out a way to make tomorrow better. Then the next day. Then the next. Have this bad day. Get it out. Go through your heartbreaking playlists. Go through those thoughts and those feelings that you feel of every different song. Reminisce if you need to on things, places, and people that are no more. This time of the year is so tough. It’s all about being together and when you can’t be, nothing feels right. And it’s okay to have a bad day because of that. Listen, you’re going to get through it. You always do. You always find away. You have made it out of every single bad day that you have faced, and that has to say something!